How do I start? This week has been another crazy week. I started a day behind because I didn’t fly back till Tuesday morning from the funeral. I literally woke up at 2am Arizona time to be in Phoenix by 6:30am ready to teach at 9am! It was a very long day but I am so glad I made the choice to not miss two days. For many reasons but mostly, I hated being a day behind on getting to know my kids. I met all my children on Tuesday but on Wednesday I met Esteban.
Esteban is the sweetest little boy!! He has a lot of things going on his personal life but he is SUPER smart! He is really emotional and tends to get frustrated really easily. I made him cry during my parallel teaching block and I felt HORRIBLE. When I took him outside to see what was wrong he finally told me he was frustrated and didn’t understand the assignment. I said, “You have 3 teachers in there, if you don’t know the answer or what your supposed to be doing, ASK!?” He looked at me with the most confused look and said, “but Miss, I thought I had 5 teachers?!” That was the moment that I knew Esteban was going to be the kid I remembered from Institute. He is so smart and just needs that extra guidance and I can’t wait to go in next week and really push him positively so he can really achieve his goals!
All throughout the week I have been struggling. Struggling with time management, struggling with making personal time, struggling with finding time to sleep…I literally feel like I haven’t had a moment to breathe…but it’s been good for me in the sense that I haven’t had a moment since I got back to deal with my emotions from the weekend. I am so glad I made the decision to go home and be with my family. I am so glad that I was able to put TFA to the side for 2 days and be myself and be around people who truly understood my needs. I have an awesome TFA family here, but there is nothing like your home.
Being here definitely makes me appreciate home. ESPECIALLY since my birthday is in 4 days (I was reminded of that today!) I honestly kept saying my birthday is in a week or so..then I realized that its really close…which makes me feel weird. I have never really celebrated my birthday, especially with a large group of people (because I have always been a summer birthday) but I am definitely excited for the OK staff to come in next week so we can celebrate all of our accomplishments AND my birthday
In all of this I just have to remember that I am here for a reason…and although it may be hard sometimes to push through, it will be SO worth it in the end!